In Savannah's final post of the semester, she reveals how she turned anxiety into accomplishment while balancing her remote internship, studies, and life in general. She also talks about how this stint taught her about challenging herself and what she wants her future to look like.
Truthfully, my experience with my internship has been a love-hate relationship. I love that I am experiencing the workforce and gaining new skills, but I hate that I have put myself in an overwhelming position. I did not think my work this semester would pile as high as it did, and I found myself struggling to balance all of my responsibilities for about six weeks. After some reflection, I realized that my time management skills put me in this vulnerable position. I wanted to be able to produce my best work, but I also wanted to hang out with my friends, and I did not want to sacrifice either of these. In the end, I realized I sacrificed my mental health in pursuit of a busy academic/professional life and a busy social life. Though I had an overwhelming semester, I learned a lot about how I work and what I want for the future. Now I know that an online career is not sustainable for me, although I’m grateful for my internship experience as it taught me more than I had thought possible.
During the height of the semester when we were feeling most overwhelmed, my roommate and I pitched a tent in our living where we enjoyed a cozy movie night.
Through the semester, anxiety turned to accomplishment. Once I started to work with my supervisor and team on projects, I felt more relieved with the work I was doing. Getting positive feedback and being allowed free rein to interact with potential blog writers was motivating. As I started to create a balanced schedule for myself, this changed to relief. Even though I was struggling with making deadlines across commitments, I was still happy that I was able to actively be part of all my obligations and submit work I was proud of.
Once COVID-19 restrictions started to ease up in Los Angeles, my roommate and I would visit cafes on our busiest days to be able to do work outside our apartment.
Even though I was anxious and overwhelmed at the start, I was still excited to challenge myself. To be able to amass new skills and put a Remote Global Internship on my resume was exciting. For me, college is about creating a future for myself and I believe the way this is done is through experience and networking. The more work I completed for Young Citizens, the more encouraged I felt. Now I can say I am proud of myself for pushing through my nerves and stress to complete the semester on good terms with myself and everyone I was committed to. In the future I can encourage myself to do ever greater things because I ended this semester in a way I feel proud of.
Savanna Nolau is an official Remote CAPA blogger/vlogger for spring 2021, sharing her story in frequent posts on CAPA World. An International Relations major from Suffolk University, she is remotely studying abroad and interning in London this semester.
See more of Savanna's remote global internship journey.